Saturday, December 13, 2008

Hmmm Home...

Just some random things that make homecoming so special.. :)

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Its 4:30 in the morning. I lean out of the fast moving train as it slows down to stop at the outer signal. After a brief hiatus it moves on again, gaining speed and I stand there enjoying the pleasant chill against my face even as the wind blows through my hair, pushing them back in the way I like. As it enters the terminal I lean even further, hoping to catch a glimpse of my parents. And there they are, both of them, ready to take me home. Let me be honest with you. No sight in the world beats the sight of seeing your parents after a long time.

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Its 5 in the morning as you drive out of the station. The roads are almost empty. Papa has brought his own car ( he assumed I was bringing back lots of luggage..lolz :P) and not my (ohk it's not mine. Technically it's mom's.. ;P) cute little 800. As we move to Ajmer Road, I put the car into the 5th gear and press down the accelerator. The speedometer crosses 100. Wow!

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Hardly ten minutes later I am home. And guess what? Bua has cooked me awesome methi ke paranthein ... yummm!!!

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I have been to a couple of weddings in the short stay here. And hey, weddings are fun this time of the year. Pleasant weather, good food, and oh well, this time the chicks weren't half bad either.. ;P. Ok but that wasn't the main point (however important and relevant it might be ;) ). The thing is, I get to spend some quality time with my family away from home. Oh that reminds me, am heading to simla for a week!! :D Finally a vacation with my family after nearly six and a half years!

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Hot water baths!!! you can't even begin to imagine how much I like these. And ghar pe I don't even have to wake up early to have one (unlike the hostel, where the hot water runs out at 10 in the morning, that is, if there was any at all )

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Breakfast in bed!! :D

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I like to read a newspaper first thing in the morning. It hardly ever happens in the hostel. At home, I wake up daily to find my ToI lying besides me.. :)

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And oh, how can I not mention home cooked food! Seriously people before heading to college I was fed up of it. Now I just can't get enough of it. I guess that's the same with everyone though...

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Thursday, December 11, 2008

When you want to write on too many things...

Islamic Terrorism and Indian Muslims

Muslims the world over celebrated Eid a couple of days back. It was heartening to see that the Indian ones were quite subdued in their celebrations and that Imams of leading mosques around the country spoke against what is being done in the name of their religion.

India has the largest number of Muslims in any country after Indonesia; yes, even more than Pakistan, the supposed homeland of the Muslims. Indian Muslims are really unique. In any other country, except China, a number of 130 odd million would make them the majority, in India they constitute the minority.

Indian Muslims are also in a position to counter the extremist ideology that forms the foundation of the Islamic terrorism. For quite sometime there has been search for an ideology to counter the extremist one being preached by the Taliban and its likes. The more tolerant, sectarian-violence free Indian Muslim way might just be the answer that we have been looking for.

Of Chief Ministers

I had been following the news about Congress victory in the Rajasthan Assembly elections. It didn't come as a surprise as in the recent past the trend has been to oust the incumbent whenever the opportunity arises. Three days have passed and still there's no consensus on the Chief-Ministerial candidate. Ex-CM Ashok Geholt, the person who led the victorious campaign is the firm favourite. Though he is being opposed by the likes of Sheesh Raam Ola, on the grounds that Gehlot ain't a Jaat. Well now, I don't have any problems as to whether a Jaat becomes the CM or a non-Jaat becomes the CM. The only thing that I got problems with is that the Congress is considering to appoint a Jaat as a deputy CM. Pray tell me, why as the tax payer should I fund the cost of this political gimmick? As if we don't have too many ministers already! The 15% limit that has been put on the size of the Cabinet is being seriously abused. It's high time we brought some structure to our executive.

Another thing which I find ridiculous is Sheesh Raam Ola contesting for the CMship. An 82 year old guy as a first time CM? For Christ's sake, gimme a break! If 60 is deemed old enough for our public servants, shouldn't there be an age bar on the politicians as well? Hon'ble Supreme Court, are we listening?

Civil Services

I had been going through the structure of the Civil Services examination and was surprised by the choice of the optional subjects available. While 23 options to choose from for one optional may sound enough, even a slightly closer look would reveal that they are grossly inadequate. For starters, Computer Science graduates like yours truly are on a disadvantage before we even start the process. Reason: Computer Science is not one of the electives. And neither is EC or IT for that matter. Apparently we don't exist.

Somebody called IAS as the mother of all exams. And indeed it is so. For unlike JEE or CAT, where genius might suffice, IAS examination pattern ensures that you need to have the capacity to carry encyclopedic knowledge in your head if you have to have even the slightest chance of succeding. While it could have been a must-have quality in the earlier days, I don't see any relevance of it now, when all the information is just a click away and when you can generate n number of simulation scenarios as per your requirements. Oh sorry, I forgot, how are the powers to be supposed to know that. After all how can we expect them to know of the internet, when they haven't even heard of Computer Engineers.

Monday, December 08, 2008

Tagged!!

So here I am.. taggeing myself... because I have nothing better to do...

1. What does your user name mean?
alien: go back to school if u dnt know this.. lolz..

2. Elaborate on your user photo.
taken a long time back.. i look as if i am lost in thoughts.. philosophical kinds..

3. How many comments do you have?
on wat dude?

4. What's your current relationship status?
all of you.. join facebook.. i jus joined the group...'awesome people who are single for no apparent reason' .. well, does that answer your question?

5. What exactly are you wearing right now?
a red tee and boxers..

6. What is your current problem?
i wanted to bathe but there's no hot water in the hostel.. :(

7. What do you love the most?
if it's what/who, then the answer is my family... else, spending time with my friends..

8. What makes you most happy?
hmmm.. a good coffee, when am with friends, eating good food, reading a good book, listening to music... you get the drift, don't you?

9. Are you musically inclined?
i think so.. currently listening to Hold on Hope..

10. What would you do if you woke up one morning and found out you were on cocaine?
finally i wud be able to compare the effects of cocaine and marijuana.. ;)

11. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
wouldn't take science in 11th..

12. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what would you be?
tiger..

13. Ever had a near-death experience?
not yet...

14. Name an obvious quality you have.
am a good speaker..

15. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
Never Too Late... 3 Days Grace

16. Are you happy today?
yeah.. leaving for home in a few hours.. :D

17. Who will cut and paste this first?
i guess Sid, though he'll curse me a lot.. ;P

18. Name someone with the same birthday as you.
salmaan khan..

19. Do you have a secret crush on someone?
not as of now, ask again in a couple of hours or so.. ;P

20. Do you have a garbage disposal in your kitchen sink?
mere hostel mein na toh kitchen hai aur na hi kitchen sink.. :|

21. Have you ever been in a fight?
yeah..

22. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
ohh yes...!! 3rd grade mein :P.. i still rem the song.. jee haan main hun khalnayak.. lolz..

23. What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
physically: face, otherwise: their manner of speaking...

24. What's your biggest mistake?
bola toh re.. 11th mein science le li..

25. Say something totally random about you.
i am totally awesome.. ;)

26. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
yeah..

27. Are you comfortable with your height?
yups..

28. What is the most romantic thing someone has ever done for you?
Wrong time dude...

29. What are your favourite smells?
baarish ke baad mitti ki smell, petrol, whenever my mom's cooking something good, of freshly brewed coffee...

30. What's something that really annoys you?
hypocrisy

31. What's something you really like?
spending time with my friends..

32. Do you give random hugs and kisses?
hugs: yes, kisses: i wish.. ;P

33. What's the latest you have ever stayed up?
10:30 am

34. Have you ever been rushed to the emergency room?
naah..

And I tag you:

Marvin

Piper

Anvita

Prabhu

Mads

Youjus..

Saturday, December 06, 2008

Home Calling!!!

ohk fellas... am off to home finally.......

come this monday, and i wud be off to my favourite place.. to my favourite city....

And as quite a few of you were expecting, no these are NOT my last days in college.. don't know wat the future has in store... but one thing is for certain.. would be coming back.. whether for the last time or not.. dunno...

48 hours to deaprture.. yipee!! :)

Friday, December 05, 2008

Of Food and Faculty

It's not often that you get to know the blokes who teach you outside the classrooms. More often than not, our interactions are just limited to the classrooms. I have been quite lucky in this respect that I have got to interact with a couple of faculty members outside the classroom environment over the last three and a half years. But what happened a couple of nights ago ws truly amazing. All of us sitting in the cafeteria, it being our last such get-together. A number of us were leaving for home the next day, and more importantly Sobu wasn't returning to college. He had been offered an internship at Qualcomm and would be in Hyderabad for the next semester. Anyways, lets not digress from the topic. So yeah, there we were sitting in the cafetaria talking from anything to everything under the sun when Manu, the guy who runs the cafe at night joined us. And well, he had some insight to offer on the food habits of our faculty members...

prof. shiv

A pretty fixed lunch... generally includes a daal, bhindi and jeera aloo.. just 2 chapatis (surprise surprise!!).. and lots of green salad... and yeah a strong coffee to top it off...

prof. mathuria

A daal a day is the motto for him... 30 days-30 daals... no deviation whatsoever... gets his veggies from home only..

prof. srivastava

Never eats in campus.. always goes home...

prof. banerjee

Well well... yeh to subah ka doodh bhi brajwasi se hi lene aate hain.. so u can guess ki khane ka to kya haal hoga.. no wonder raat ko bhi cafeteria mein hi dikhte hai... apparently, mrs. banerjee, doesn't like to cook..

Next we asked Manu kis sabse zyada kaun khata hai.. and well.. the list wasn't surprising at all...

pk chopra, prof. anil roy, kumbar....

prof. sinha (Daddu)
and prof. Jotwani were among the rare eaters... while rest everybody was almost a regular..

I wonder what happens next, now that brajwasi has finally decided to close its shop...

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Mixed Bag

Hmmm.. its nearly four in the morning. I should be asleep, have a presentation in the morning. But I just cant go to sleep, no, not yet. In what has become almost a ritual, i spend hours on the blogosphere, reading, commenting, reading some more and yeah a bit of writing...

I felt something about quite a few things in the past 24 hours or so. This is going to be a mixed bag of sorts. A few lines of this, a few of that....

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Joined a group on FB. Something to do with bringing about social change in the wake of the recent attacks. A good initiative. But I have my doubts as to how successful it would be. Anyways, I hope that I am wrong...

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Sid and I had an account running that stretched back to our second year. Finally its settled today.. :D

The wait is finally over.. yeyeyye.. ;P

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The past couple of days, my mood threatened to go off again.. again the issues involved were similar. Not even similar, they were the same. I wonder when some people would learn and start to give life it's due...

Live it up folks, you just get one shot at it!!

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My blog has had an influx of new readers over the last 24 hours... :)

All those who have been reading my ramblings, thank you for your patience and persevearance.. :)

And the ones who have just started.. Welcome.. :)

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Am loaded!! and loaded bole toh seriously loaded... after a loooonnngg time.. :D

Feels so good... :biggrin:

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Had a great dinner... more than the food it was the atmosphere. The not so quiet and frank talks. Almost rivalled the fun that I had a couple of days back. Didn't write about it.. but hey.. doesn't 60 pics on one's FB account say something .. ;P

At least one of my dinner companions is bound to read this.. lets keep these dinners rolling.. :)


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It's finally over in Mumbai. I mourn those who lost their lives in this mindless carnage. But more than that, my heart goes out to those who lost a loved one in these attacks. Death is a one time tyrant, but agony and grief are lifelong plagues... :(

Our armed forces did a commendable job in Mumbai...

I salute the Heroes in Uniform..

Also,

I salute the spirit of the Maximum City... Salaam Bombay!!!


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Saturday, November 29, 2008

Hmm..

Had my first hot water bath of the winters yesterday morning... :)

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Yet Again

They strike again
We bleed again
How long is this gonna last, I wonder
The answer comes,
A scary thought I dread to voice
Until we learn to value human life...

Muted spectators,
That's what we have become
What can we do
Is all we ask
We shrug and move on
That's all we do
But oh, there's a lot more we can do
If only we believe, that
Yes, we can!

Resilience, often mentioned
Would be needed again,
For Bombay bleeds
It's time to grieve
But not to kneel

Sunday, November 23, 2008

And here she comes...

Had been observing this phenomenon on the blogosphere for quite a while and was wondering as to when the bug would find its way to my immediate neighbourhood in the blogosphere. Well, didn't have to wait for too long. For the bug has arrived or shall we say, the butterfly has arrived!

The Butterfly Award :)

It's a special one, for it happens to be my first since school, and also, my first in the virtual world...

Thank you Prabhu for the same...

And before i pass upon the baton, here are a few rules...

  • Put the award on your blog.
  • Add a link to the person who presented it to you.
  • Pass on the award to those you think deserve it.
  • And most importantly, keep the words flowing...
Assuming, I can still pass it on to those who have already been visited by the butterfly, I send the butterfly to..

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Lost...


Something's wrong with me

I don't know what, but something is

Definitely wrong with me


I no longer care for anything

Nothing bothers me anymore

It's not as if I stopped caring,

For I never cared anyway


I sometimes wonder what have I become

It wasn't supposed to be like this

And now I sit and think

Of what I want to be

And the answer scares me


This change, whatever it is

Is freaking me out

I no longer find any comfort,

Nor solace in my solitude


Am floating away

But not going anywhere

Unknown to all,

Am floating away


All I wanted was to live

Not anymore, Now

I wish to escape

I wish to die

Saturday, November 15, 2008

The Date with Destiny

Most of you who take the pain to go through the random assortment of my musings already know this story. But then I had told someone that I will write it. And here it is, for that person, and of course for the sake of the writer in me :). It's a coincidence of sorts that I am writing this a day after I have received an interesting offer from the same set of people; a day before an exam which till some time ago was of the most concern to me. However it all changed that day, for that day was nothing less than a date with destiny.


It was the 4th of October 2008. Deloitte had come to our campus to recruit. It was the first time that they had come and I was quite keen on working with them. Finally here was the kind of a company that i really wanted to join. So they started the placement process with the usual presentation about the company and that was followed by a written test. The test was quite easy and I was confident of clearing it. I did.

We were then divided into groups and given a case study. It was a unique experience for all of us as none of us had ever done that sort of thing before. After the case study, there was a presentation. On the basis of the case study and our presentation, they shortlisted 27 people. My name wasn't there. And I was feeling pretty bad about it. The case study had gone well and the presentation, though not perfect, had been above average.

I came back to my room, pretty disappointed at blowing this fabulous opportunity. I still couldn't believe that I hadn't made it. Anyways Gol suggested that since we were free for the day we might as well head to Ahmedabad. Those were the days of Durga Puja and I had been looking for an opportunity to attend one and so I said yes to him. After the usual delays, courtesy Sobu et all, we were finally ready to leave. Just then Khyati called and asked us to wait for her. I just couldn't believe it. It was already past 5, and we hadn't even started our journey. As we were waiting for Khyati to get ready ( now all those who know her, or for that matter know any female, know how long that wait is ;P) G suggested that we go to the Club House to watch the Ramleela practice. Having nothing better to do, I said fine and so we both headed to the Club House.

While I was there I got a call from Mundra saying that come fast you have an interview right now. I told him to shove it as I was in no mood to joke. And he was like mazaak nahi kar raha, seriously hai. Well, I raced back to my room, changed back into formals and rushed to the CEP, that is the place where the interviews were being held. All this in two minutes! ( and people say I'm lazy!! lolz ;P )

Chadda was there with my resume and I handed the same to the HR lady. Fine so I gave my interview. By now it was too late to go for the Puja, so we all just decided to head to Sanjha Chulha for dinner. It was while I was waiting at GH0 for some conveyance that i recevied a call from Saru saying that I had made it!! :D

Now that we know the story, let's move to the most interesting part of all. How did I get that phone call... I don't even know if i actually remember what i was told about it. I was so outta this world. Anyways I guess it was something along these lines..

One of the guys from Deloitte was talking to Mundra after his interview, asking for his feedback on the process and all. He said that all was fine except for the fact that some of the guys who should have made it, didn't. Mine was among the few names he took. Fortunately for me, the guy was the same one who had observed my case study and my name must have struck some chord ( another benefit of having a unique name ;) )Well so he goes inside the room where all the Deloitte people were and a couple of minutes later their HR lady comes out and said that there had been an error on their part, somehow my name had been omitted while copying the list of names from one page to the other. She asked our placement officer if it was possible to contact me. That's when Mundra called!!

I have always believed in luck. What happened that evening simply reinforced my belief in Destiny. If not for the delays caused by Sobu and others we would have left for the Durga Puja a long time back. Had it not been for Khayti's call, I wouldn't have been in campus after 5. Had it been anyone else, other than the guy who had observed me during the case study, talking to Mundra, I probably wouldn't have made it. It was as if the entire Universe conspired to make sure that what was destined happened. It was like the various pieces of the jigsaw fitting in just the perfect fashion. I do believe that to an extent you can shape your own life, but then there's Fate!

Monday, November 03, 2008

Living Randomness


I don't know where to begin this one. There is so much that can be said so much that can be written, and to compound the problem even further am not sure what I want to write. Synapse, if ever I would be asked to name an event that would define my four years in this institute, it would undoubtedly be Synapse.


Ohk, for the uninitiated, Synapse is the annual techno-cultural megafest of DA-IICT. Synapse 08 was a 3 day affair and took place from 29th February to 2nd March 2008. There were a lot of things that separated this edition of Synapse from the previous ones. After the financial fiasco in '06, Synapse 2008 built upon the platform established by the previous edition. The budget for the festival almost doubled to breach the 10L barrier. However more than anything, it was the introduction of events like Inc. and Rekriti, and Agnee's live in concert that made Synapse 08 special for me. While Inc. and Rekriti added a whole new dimension to Synapse, Agnee marked the return of celebrity quotient to Synapse.


The journey that culminated in the 3 day extravaganza started way back in March of the previous year. We had just witnessed a successful annual festival and people were keen to build upon the platform. The enthusiasm was particularly high among my batchmates as next year, the onus was going to be on us to deliver a memorable festival. It was in such times that I was approached to contest the election. The situation was so similar to my first year in college. Then too, I had been asked to throw my hat in the ring, and at that time having volunteered for Synapse 06, I was very keen to do so. However I lost, owing to a sad truth I came to realize then; college elections do not ensure that the best person for the job gets the job. A subsequent rejection as an event coordinator, in favour of a more connected team, ensured that I detached myself from Synapse 07 completely. It was a successful event and I had nothing to contribute to it, apart from as a member of the audience. And thus when I was asked again to file in my nomination I wasn't that keen. An year had passed. And I had gained enough experience of my own to know that I could contribute significantly to Synapse. However I wasn't sure that I wanted to do this. The desire to contribute was there, but the motivation to put myself through another election process was not. Anyways, I did throw my hat in and got through after a close battle. Thereafter there was no reluctance, no doubts; only passion and commitment.


Soon it was August, the beginning of my 5th semester. As is the norm, the month of April and the summer vacations had passed without nay significant progress. However now it was time to start dreaming about what we wanted for Synapse 08. Some pointers emerged after the initial discussions. There was a need to rope in at least one celebrity artist and to add a business leg to Synapse. Today am very happy that both of these were successfully achieved. Another thing which, in hindsight, makes me proud of working of our Committee was the transparent selection of the event coordinators. I guess it had much to do with my personal experience last year.

The theme for Synapse 08 was Living Randomness. It was a conscious decision to move away from a serious sounding 3 word theme of the previous edition. Agreed that an annual festival is an expression of the potential of the students of an institute, but more than that, its about fun. The theme was chosen to represent the inherent randomness in our lives.


No matter how good the planning be, if there aren't any people to implement and execute those plans all your planning amounts to zilch. I was blessed that I got to work with some real good people during the run up to Synapse. In no particular order, let me list a few of them. Hmm lets see, there was Chito, responsible for keeping Re-Kriti on track. He was reluctant to be a part of the organising team, but finally my persuasive powers proved to be too much for him :satan: . But seriously, his presence ensured that I was free from the burden of looking into Re-Kriti. Then there was Sai Gopal, briliant designer. All credit to him for an awesome sponsorship brochure. Vasu, for managing the website and looking after other technical stuff of which, frankly, I have no knowledge. Appy, for the liveliness she brought to Synapse through Synapcity. I still remember how we used to plead with Mundra to let us gorge at McD or at Dominos on those innumerable trips to Ahmedabad ;P.


All that Synapse 08 was, the standards it set, the benchmarks it bettered, wouldn’t have been possible without the dedicated team that I had the privilege of leading. Saurabh, a calm young man. He rarely ever raised his voice and always put forth his views in a composed manner. Excellent at executing tasks assigned to him. Sandy, a lazy man with potential. Was instrumental in securing sponsorship from the Govt. companies but had to be pushed and prodded a lot. Ankit, hmm, he could aptly be named as the lieutenant of our organization. Single handedly managed logistics and all the ground work during Synapse. He is around this time too, hoping quite a bit from him. Bharat, ahha, the enthu cutlet of our team. He achieved a hell lot of things during Synapse by the sheer magnitude of the effort he put in. We had our disagreements, but on the whole a great guy to work with. Finally only one guy remains. The person with whom I worked the most. Mundra. Indeed the story of Synapse could be told as a string of episodes comprising of our visits to Ahmedabad.


Synapse meant a lot of things. It meant staying back in college in the month to figure out sponsorship deals, it meant 10 o' clock appointments with our then placement officer, Col. Kanetkar. Indeed he played an important role in establishing initial contact with the various IT firms and helped us save a hell lot of money on telephone calls! Synapse meant innumerable visits to Ahmedabad, it meant a desktop littered with word docs and excel files dealing with something or the other related to Synapse, it meant hour long sessions with our faculty counselors that drained more energy out of me than any number of calls to prospective sponsors. The only thing that made it possible for me to make it through those was that at the end of those, more often than not, we used to get what we wanted.


I don’t remember much of those three days. However there are a few incidents that would forever remain etched in my memory. It was a few days before Synapse. In house prelims were being held in the Club House and I too was there looking over things. That's when I got the call that a couple of sponsorship deals had come through. It was a moment that I had been dreaming of for quite a while, for with those deals, my dream of breaching the 10L sponsorship mark had been realized. We had succeeded in raising bloody f***in 10 lakhs!!


Another was the day before Synapse kicked off. I had gone to the Director's office to invite him to kick start Synapse. That's when I came to know, that someone had completely ignored my instructions and a few things were horribly wrong. I still remember the moment when the Director said, 'Give me one reason why I shouldn't call of your festival?'


The next one came on the morning of the 29th. I was sleeping at the Synapse room, as we had somehow managed to misplace the keys. It was 8ish in the morning, and having just woken up, I had decided to head back to my room to get ready. That's when I saw the jeeps coming in with the participants. Synapse had begun!


Those 3 days passed in a blur. I have no recollections of the details though certain things remain unchanged. Everyday I slept at the Synapse room, somehow it felt more comfortable despite the chill and lack of a proper bed. Everyday I slept after 4 and was awake by 8 in the morning. Those four hours charged not only my body but also my cell phone. I used to start my day with a fully charged mobile and by the afternoon I was reduced to carrying my phone in one pocket and the charger in the other.


For several months Synapse came to define the purpose of my existence and it was but natural when I felt at sea when it was all over. I was exhausted. I had achieved what I had set out to achieve. There was nothing more to do. But somehow there was this desire within me, to live those days again. I had come to like the pressure, the tension that comes with it.


A lot of water has passed under the bridge since Synapse. My life has changed a lot from those days, but the memories remain. And its these memories that shall define what Synapse was all about. I still remember the trips that Mundra and I undertook in December, his wake up calls once he had met with Col. Kanetkar. I remember us hanging on to a jeep for dear life, those burgers at McD, those exhausting walks up and down Ashram Road. I remember the innumerable phone calls, the days when I could have talked to sponsors half asleep. I remember the drink that I had with the guys from Agnee the night they had arrived, and the ones post their concert. Synapse brought a lot of people in my life, some are still here, some have moved on and some will still be around in the future. It's the latter that matter. People come and go, events take place, things change but the memories linger…

Friday, October 31, 2008

Random Thoughts...

Came across the following lines somewhere... don't remember exactly where... maybe in some book.. more likely on a blog...

Shake off the "why's" and the "what if's" and rid yourself of confusion. Whatever was - is in the past. Whatever is? That’s what's important. The past is a brief reflection, and the future is yet to be realized.


There comes a point in your life, when you realize who matters, who never did, who won’t anymore, and who always will. So I am not worrying about the people from my past, there’s a good reason they didn’t make it to my future.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Diwali..

Hmmm.. so finally the day is over. And with it ends my first Diwali away from home. It was a day of firsts. My first Diwali away from my parents; my first Diwali outside Jaipur; my first Diwali in the hostel....

It was interesting to say the least. The day started like no other Diwali. Usually am woken up relatively early and have to take my bath and get ready and everything. This time round it was different. I was still sleeping when my parents gave me a call at 3 in the afternoon ;P

After watching the latest episode of Heroes and cursing over the non availability of those of PB and HIMYM, I decided that it was time that I went and had a bath. After all you can't afford not having a bath on the day of a major festival... ( ab itna gaya guzra bhi nahin hun main :P... vaise another secret.. the bath would have probably been delayed even more, had it not been for the fact ki hostels mein garam pani nahi hai... :X .. aur mujhe beemar hone ka koi shauk nahi )

Anyways, Sobu and I had decided that we would go to CCD... Server was asleep, and after contemplating for a while, both of us decided that it was best that he be allowed to rest, lest the Server become unstable and start querying everyone in sight ;P ( something worth mentioning here... yours truly had, the day before, observed signs of instability and heightened activity when Server started querying about Sobu in the bathroom... not the washroom.. but the lil cubicles with a shower and 2 taps in it :P )

Anyways.. coll se nikalte hue, the two of us saw a banner advertising the opening of The Chocolate Room at Infocity... u r tempted, isn't it.. well so were we... after gorging upon the delicacies at CCD, we decided to look for it... we went as far as CP... but our efforts were in vain... sala mil hi nahi raha tha... thinking that it was probably towards the offices, we decided to turn back.. (G ne beech mein phone aur sms pe Sobu ko garyana shuru kar diya tha.. :P) And lo.. there was the Chocolate Room, right beside CCD... Sobu had an interesting observation to make.. ' bekaar marketing and placement strategy... jab hum dhundne nikle the, tab nahi dikha, to logon ko vaise kaise dikhega...' hmmm.. i wonder....

By the time we returned, it was time to light the firecrackers... That was a lot of fun.. As expected not everyone got hold of the firecrackers.. and the admin got quite a bit of verbal stick for giving us sub standard crackers... a pleasant surprise was that like me, there were quite a few who voluntarily said No to crackers... yeye... We going Green.. :)

Now we come to the most interesting part of the day... After playing cards for a while, we decided that it was time to hit the roads and check out the Diwali decorations ( Infocity had already disappointed us by the lack of the same). I had bugged Sobu enough about the magnificent illumination back home... We managed to obtain a Kinetic and began our journey... Our initial plans of going to Ahmedabad were put to rest by the mileage of the vehicle... So we decided to hit the capital city itself... Considering that it houses quite a few govt. offices, there were enough reasons to expect it to be well decorated... but man.. we were in for a surprise... there was hardly any decoration and illumination! You had to see it to believe the lack of it... We hit one sector after another... 11, 16, 24, 21... but the result was the same... no decoration! Even the main market of Sector 21 was without any decoration. In fact the most decorated places were the petrol pumps!! The brilliantly decorated images of Joahri and Bapu Bazaar back home flash in my mind... It was such a shock that it has got me wondering if Diwali is indeed the Festival of Lights...


We still could afford to travel quite a few kilometers, so we decided to hit City Pulse... Bhains auntie had once told me that the City Pulse vala road ends in a broken bridge or something which is quite a spot... so well we decided to check that out.... we kept on going.. par no broken bridge was in sight... finally we came upon a semi haunted temple... ;P ... seemed like a palce worth checking out sometime... we had encountered an auto on our way and it had told us ki twas just a village ahead... maybe Bhains aunite had meant some other road... maybe Bridge ke upar road ban gayi ho.. who knows... but yeah... we discovered a new place... that semi haunted temple... and how can i forget... we also came across one of the few decorated buildings.. a radhaswamy ashram :)... did u know that a such a place existed in our vicinity? i didn't!

We decided to head back towards college... On our way back we came across the Swaminarayan temple and it too was decently decorated... We were planning to hit Shrey Ashram next when it happened... the kinetic wobbled a bit... i felt something was wrong with the front tyre... Sobu got down to examine... he decalred the tyre to be hit... but alas! everything can;t be so perfect.. something had to be wrong... and it was... I was right about something being wrong with the tyre.. the only thing was that it was the rear one... :S

Well the next phase of the journey involved Sobu and I taking turns to drag the Kinetic back to the college... Thankfully it happened just around a kilometer away from the campus.... And that brings an end to the tale of my first Diwali away from home... one of the more interesting ones to say the least... but yeah.. i missed the decorations...

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Happy Diwali...

So finally its Diwali time. This happens to be my first Diwali away from home, away from the company of my loved ones, away from those who care for me. But somehow I don't really miss the festive spirit. Maybe because it's still close to midnight and the real deal would start only in the evening. Maybe coz I prefer it this way, in the company of a couple of friends, away from everyone. Is that so? No, I don't think so. At least not yet.

Despite all this a few things have emerged over the last couple of days. I now understand why people crave to be with their families at the time of the festivals. At the same time it has got me thinking of those who, by a quirk of fate, are forever destined to stay away from their families even on days like today. Just think of those soldiers who patrol the borders so that we all could celebrate a prosperous Diwali. I wonder if their hearts don't ache for their loved ones, or if they don't feel a longing to be with their families on this day. Then there are millions of those who have nobody whom they could call their own in this world but themselves. I wonder what Diwali means to them.

I am away from my family on Diwali by choice and not by compulsion. And now i realize what a lot that choice means. There are so many out there who would give anything to just have that kind of choice. Its strange that i never thought of these things all this while. All these years when i was with my family celbrating Diwali, these thoughts never crossed my mind. I guess sometimes you just need a different setting, a different sort of environment to stimulate your mind. You tend to appreciate and cherish things more when they aren't with you.

And one more thing. Try going Green this Diwali. For a change let us celebrate Diwali and allow Mother Nature to enjoy the occasion as well. Say no to crackers.

And when you are gorging upon all those sweets and mindlessly forwarding text messages to those scores of numbers in your phonebook, do spare a thought for all those for whom Diwali is just another day at the office, for whom Diwali is just like another day, a day that has to be survived, for whom Diwali is yet another challenge to be overcome...

Happy Diwali :)

Saturday, October 25, 2008

In the pipeline...

I have been meaning to write upon these for quite some time now, but somehow it just keeps getting delayed. I guess putting it out there in front of my loyal readership would goad me into writing at least some, if not all of them. So here's the list..

  • Synapse: This one should have been written a long time back. I have learnt a lot from it and some of my happiest memories relate to Synapse. Quite committed to writing it.. :)
  • The Chosen One: This would be a piece on Sachin Tendulkar. Since I have to in any case write it for Entelechy, so I guess this too would be done!
  • The Date with Destiny: Most of my loyal readership already knows the story. But just for the sake of the writer in me, would write it...
  • Hmmm... dunno wat else ! ;P

Saturday, October 18, 2008

The Off-Side God


The upcoming test series against Australia would mark the end of the career of India's most successful captain, the Prince of Kolkata, Sourav Ganguly. Sourav Ganguly, the man who along with John Wright transformed the face of Indian cricket; the man whose cover drives could find the fence even with a 7-2 field; the man who along with Sachin Tendulkar formed one of the most potent opening partnerships that the world of cricket has ever witnessed.



After a forgettable ODI debut on the tour of 1992 in Australia, Ganguly spent the next four years in the wilderness till he was chosen for the Indian team to tour England in 1996. Ganguly made his Test debut at Lords and oh boy what a debut it was! After making an imperious century at Lords, he followed it up with an equally impressive one at Trent Bridge in the next test. Later that year, in an ODI at Jaipur against the Proteas, the world, for the first time, witnessed the greatest opening pair of all times in action. Both Sachin and Ganguly helped themselves to fifties as they put up first of their many several century plus stands.



The next couple of years saw Ganguly at his imperious best as bowlers all around the world watched in awe as Ganguly threaded the off side field with nonchalance and deported spinning deliveries over the bowlers' heads and into the stands. However more than Ganguly the batsman, its Ganguly the captain that the fans would cherish. In Ganguly, India was lucky to have a captain who wasn't afraid, who had the self-belief to go out there and beat any and everyone in the world. Most importantly he was a captain who galvanized a number of talented individuals into a competitive outfit.


Ganguly was passionate and wore his heart on his sleeve. Though it would be feats like stopping Steve Waugh's juggernaut in 2001 and leading India to the World Cup final a couple of years down the line that would define his career. It were small things like making Waugh wait for a toss and waving his tee shirt at the Lord's balcony that endeared him to his fans.



Ganguly came from Bengal, and was made captain in times when Indian cricket was dominated by the troika of Mumbai, Delhi and Karnataka. The fact that today a young lad from Ranchi is leading the Indian one day side wouldn't have been possible had the Ganguly era not unfolded. Under his captaincy Indians became better travelers. He backed the youngsters in his team to the hilt. Harbhajan, Yuvraj and many others owe their positions in the Indian team to their then charismatic captain, Sourav Ganguly. He ushered in what could rightly be called the Golden Age of Indian cricket.


Ganguly was perhaps at the nadir of his career when Greg Chappell was India's coach. Ganguly wouldn't have imagined in the wildest of his dreams the impact that his decision to support Chappell against the wish of his teammates would have on his career. The last year of his captaincy was marked with batting failures and more batting failures. Captaincy was wrested from him and in no time he found himself out of the Indian team. But Ganguly was a determined man, determined to win his place back, determined to prove that he still deserved a place in the team he had so patiently built.



The determination was for all to see when Ganguly made his comeback in South Africa. He was composed against England, and when South Africa and Pakistan visited India, he was once again at his imperious best. He notched up his maiden hundred at the Eden Gardens and followed it up with a magnificent double hundred.



After an indifferent summer in Australia and a forgettable failure in Sri Lanka earlier this year, doubts began to surface again. His ODI career had been brought to an end in Australia and there was a question mark if Ganguly still had the hunger to go on. It's ironical that the last chapter in the Ganguly saga would perhaps be written at Nagpur, where he drove the first nail in the coffin of his captaincy by withdrawing from the Test against Australia. He has one last chance to do what he does best, getting under the Australians' skin. But no matter what happens in the series, his legacy would remain intact.


Good Bye Dada...

Friday, October 03, 2008

Musings...

I never actually got to penning it down. Perhaps I thought that it would do more harm than good. Perhaps I thought that it was better left unsaid. Perhaps that’s the way it was meant to be. But then, are things ever the way they are meant to be ?


Why am I doing this now? Now, after all this time; when it's all over, or at least that's what I am made to believe. What I have been forced to believe. Forced to accept as truth something I know is wrong. But then, just because it's right doesn't make it true, isn't it?


I never really expected it. In most cases you know what is coming and when it happens, there's a sense of inevitability about it. But with me it was the proverbial bolt from the sky. I never knew what hit me. I never knew why it happened. What I knew, was that this was not how it was supposed to end. But then, we don't always get what we want.


There were pitfalls. But then there always are. For most part they were negotiated without any damage. Hardly any in fact. And that made it even more hard to believe. What I believed in, what to an extent defined me, completed my existence was no longer around. Exactly one month after that memorable morning I found myself alone, out at the high seas, with the lights of the life boat getting dimmer and dimmer. But then, I wasn't supposed to drown, not yet anyway.


Over the next couple of days I alternated between trying to cry and salvaging the dream. And at neither did I succeed. The eyes had dried, how and what for purpose I don’t know and I guess I never will. While the non-existent yet ever-present tears had run dry, my efforts encountered a wall of steel on the other hand. The voice was cold, the emotions absent. It was as if there had been a transformation overnight. I screamed that it was wrong; I pleaded. But then, all pleas are not meant to be answered, all screams not meant to be heard; some of them fall on deaf ears.


What was it ? Was it a beautiful dream with a tragic end ? Was it a betrayal ? Would I ever be able to forget, and more importantly, forgive ? I wish I had the answers to these questions and many more like them that keep rearing their heads. But then, all wishes are not meant to be granted.


I have come to accept it in a way. But not in a way it was hoped I would accept. That could never happen for that would have meant that everything that led to it was nothing but a bunch of lies. And that is not the case. But I have changed. Rather, I have been changed. A part of me died that evening. Faith has been shattered, trust has been broken, beliefs have been belied. More than anything, love was denied. But then I ask myself, what really is love ?

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Ridiculous

Had been home the past few days and thus had the opportunity to feast upon the newspaper every morning., and that's when I came upon these ridiculously ridiculous statements made by people no less distinguished than the members of the Government of India...

  • In the wake of the recent terrorist strikes, our hon'ble Home Minister was in the limelight quite often. And you just couldn't help getting pissed at his comments. Strike after strike he came up with comments like 'we will not tolerate this..' , 'they will be punished' and blah blah blah... Again and again he repeated those statements without ever bothering to back them up with actions. Hail the Home Minister!
  • Recently it was in the news that a mob of fired employees atatcked and killed a CEO of an MNC. Guess what one of our Ministers had to say? According to him the CEO had it coming! Oops!!
  • And yeah this is the biggie! Its not exactly a statement but more of a decision taken by our Telecom ministry. A few months back they sold 2G spectrum licences at the prices determined in 2001. And you don't need to be an Einstein to guess that the private companies who got those licences are not making a killing. Recently a private operator sold its licence at a premium of 600%. Estimated loss to the exchequerer: a whopping 44,000 crores.

Monday, September 08, 2008

Statements...

These are the statements that I have made over a period of time.. and being the narcissist I am, I couldn't help but complie them...

  • What is Life is not a Risk?
  • Sometimes the people who teach us how to love are the same ones who end up teaching us how to hate...
  • I know the questions. Answers are what I am looking for...
  • Even Mathematics, the most rational of sciences, has Irrational entities...
  • A narcissist is one who understands that to love onself is the beginning of a life long romance.
  • Forgetting a problem doesn't make it go away.
  • In the end it all comes down to the people we love the most; they are the ones who matter and it's all about them.
  • Isn't Life all about looking for a solution? There always are problems, and we always look for solutions. If the problems end, so does life...

Saturday, September 06, 2008

Why......

Why would a person drive at over 100 Km/hr after consuming certain unmentionables?

Why would a person go and just sit in front of a building ?

Why would a person do all these at 4 in the morning?

These are the questions...

The answers are what I am looking for....

Last Night...

Hmm.. last night was nothing if not interesting... from the roof of the club house to the stairs of F wing... from liquids to fumes... from the college to Adalaj... from bottles to packs.. from a certain hostel to Pathika...from 0 to 100 km/hr.... from 12 am to 5 am.... and conversations.. conversations during which stories closest to our hearts were told... the pain was shared... grief was reduced... conversations which showcased the often hidden side of people... stereotypes were broken....

There are some things you never forget... some things that always stay with you... this night was one of those...

Friday, September 05, 2008

My take on Narcissism

A narcissist is one who understands that to love onself is the beginning of a life long romance.

I am a NaRCiSSiST...

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Am lovin it !

Ahh.. there's nothing like a great mock to boost your confidence and to urge you to start being serious about your preparation.. AIMCAT 0909 was one such mock... city rank 1 after all :D

this one's even more satisfying... the rage, the fury, that had threatened to destroy everything was overcome... naah not overcome rather channelized in the right direction...

for a fleeting moment today i actually thought what it would feel like to be in those exalted institutions... living a life, that i must be honest in admitting, i have always dreamt of living...

guess the Renaissance has begun...

Cheers to Life...

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Tag... :)

I had promised someone that I will answer the tag as soon as I am sure of all the answers. I don't know if that would ever come. But now seems as good a time as any. So here is goes...

Biggest Joy at the moment: The fact that I have rediscovered what life is all about. I have realized the futility of all that I had undergone the past couple of weeks. The fact that I'm ready to go out and achieve what I want to.

Biggest Insecurity at the moment: I hope that its not a false dawn. Let the resistance not crumble again. What if I don't achieve what i want to?

One thing you could undo if given an option: Ahh... probably would go back and take commerce in 11th. I guess that would pretty much sort everything out. Would have then gone on to either DU or done law.

5 things life taught you the hard way:
  1. Life gives you only one chance at somethings, if you miss that, that's it, you have missed it.
  2. Don't assume that everyone thinks like you do.
  3. In relationships, giving your 100% may not be sufficient.
  4. Don't give so much importance to someone that you can't live without them.
  5. People whom you least expect would hurt you the most.
5 people who make life kickass (except family): A couple of old school friends, a close female friend, and my close group of college friends....

What are the qualities you imagine in your dream gal: I don't want to answer this... and you know why...

One thing you wanna tell the world in general: Live this life to the fullest. You have got only one shot at it. Let there be no regrets. And most importantly live it for yourself, as you want it.

And now i pass on the tag to Piper, Marvin and Prabhu ...

The Age of the Phoenix


Phoenix symbolizes immortality, the ability to resurrect, to rise from its own ashes. For a long time I have made people a priority in life, people for whom I wasn't a priority, but an option. For too long a time I have lived my life for such people. But today it all changes. From now on I will live for those for whom I am a priority. More than anything, I will live for myself.

A phoenix, when it burns, symbolizes leaving the past behind, marking a new beginning. Today I hail the beginning of the Age of the Phoenix. Some people have tried breaking me, breaking my spirit. They took away my dreams but they weren't able to break my spirit. Today I leave all that behind to start a journey, the sole aim of which, is pursuit of my endeavours.

The Renaissance begins..

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Day 13: 29th August 2008

Ahh my faithful readers... you would have thought that just when it was getting interesting, I didn't show up... naah don't worry... am not going to leave you in there... without any quality crap accounts to read :P...

So the question seems inevitable.. why am i so late.. the reason is the pathetic internet of my college... I couldn't log into blogger! blah...

Anyways so day 13... hmmm again characterized by a lot of wasitng of time... nowadays it seems as if time itself has stopped... i mean the dates keep changing but then nothing else does! its as if we have been suspended in a very thick medium... we are just not moving... nothign seems to matter... nor does it make a difference.. somehow this has to change... i don't like living life this way... and it IS going to change... starting today... right as of this moment I have decided that this would be the last post under the series... you might still get to hear my daily accounts but they would be different, they have to be different...

anyways back to day 13... apart from attending a lecture and a meeting of the long forgotten press club, i don't think i did anything wort mentioning yesterday...

so that is that...

n-13 days to go...

ohh no.. hold it hold it... its over... the countdown ends.....

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days to go...

Friday, August 29, 2008

The Conversation

As promised ( i happen to be quite good at keeping them btw :P ), here is the conversation... a conversation between two persons, virtual strangers, brought together by chance, by quirk of fate...

[A]: interesting blog...

[R]: thnks...
so wat u doing these days?

[A]: law....

[R]: hmmm k... which law skl? nd how many yrs more till u become a lawyer...

[A]: i m in National Law University, Jodhpur, n arnd 2 yrs to become a lawyer....

[R]: was jus browsin through ur blog.. there seems to be a lot of anger and disappointment, disillusionment maybe, in there... i know how it can feel.. jus recovered from a similar phase myself... but guess the betrayal is much stronger in ur case...

[A]: yes it is.. but there is still hope to see the brighter side....

[R]: ahh.. thats good..

[A]: but havn't been lucky till now...

[R]: for the past several days, have been trying to convinve myself to stop wasting life... you only get one shot at it... seems logical and reasonable... but somehow cant implement it... the day ones does it... that when we get lucky...

[A]: n everyone wants that day to come soon.. but is not easy to deal your own self with an iron hand...

[R]: agreed...

[A]: so we still looking for the solution....

[R]: isnt life all about looking for a soluiton?there always are problems... and we always look for solutions... if the problems end, so does life...

[A]: true... but once in a while forgetting every problem is more desirable...

[R]: forgetting a problem doesn't make it go away...

[A]: not forgetting rather keeping aside for a while....

[R]: hmm.. that should help.. clearing your mind of all the clutter there is...

[A]: yes... n the sparkling liquid in the bottle with red cap does it the best....

[R]: haha... absolutely...

Day 12: 28th August 2008

It came and would have gone without bothering me had it not been for two facts:
a.) it was dad's bday...
b.) had an interesting conversation. (yeah another one.. these days it seems all i am doing is having conversations, inconsequential or interesting, doesn't matter :P.. )

My inverse routine coninued for the 2nd consectuive day: sleeping time: 10 am... wake up time: 8:30 pm...

have asked kaka to sudharofy his pota and he has consented... something to look forward to at last .. :)

apart from all this it was just another waste of time day.. God i must be the biggest idiot alive.. realizing am wasting time and not doing anything about it...

And yeah am going to post that conversation of mine here... most probably in the next few mins ( internet gods willing... )

I still have to answer a tag that i have agreed to answer.. but want to do justice with it.. answer as truthfully as i can.. so you know.. just hang on..

And how can i forget... health is improving :) :)

n-12 days to go...

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Day 11: 27th August 2008

Now this is interesting... a few days back i had decided to change my schedule, so as to gradually adjust to the timing of the test on the D- day because as of now, my mind ain't at its peak during 10 am - 1 pm to slot. And since IIMs aren't going to conduct CAT at 3 in the morning, the only option for me was to change. Well I did manage to change my schedule but there's a slight twist here... yesterday i slept at 12 pm and woke at 8 pm :S

So that's wat day 11 was pretty much all about... sleeping :D .. though did manage 15 mins of studies :satan: and some gruellling accounting work...

n-11 days to go...

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Day 10: 26th August 2008

Baah.. that's the word for this day.. the dreaded common cold has arrived :( ... the giant drums from the Beijing's bird nest have been transferred to their new location... my head... and my tummy thinks its a good time to throw some tantrums too... :( :(

Why do I fall sick everytime the season changes ...

Had slept early in the night owing to the meds.. woke up at 8ish... filled my CAT form.. the only worthwhile thing i did in the day btw... was looking fwd to Shiv's lecture when i got to know that it has been cancelled..

thnx to a good soul named Mundra... didnt have to go to ahmedabad to deposit the CAT form.. another highlight of an otherwise forgettable day... you rock dude :)

assured that the from was in safe hands, slept off again.. courtesy the meds once more...

from evening to midnight... don't really know what i did... watched some episodes of 24... dinner time came and went.. with my bad luck again prevented me from having what i had desired... baah.. that sounds too corny :P

anyways settled for another junk meal..... have been doing that for last 3 days... junk junk and junk.. barring today's breakfast of course.. aloo ki sabzi and puri... yummm :)

The net's been screwed all day.. can't even book my damm ticket...

that pretty much sums it up.. i kno its quite long.. and not very interesting.. but then i don't care.. i write for myself.. and i write what i want.. if you have a problem with that, that's exactly what it is... your problem!

n-10 days to go...

Things I hate...

Ah... the list is quite varied and long... and I can never expect myself to be able to compile it in its entirety.. but here's what has been bothering me a lot recently..

Mobiles: Thsi technological wonder has solved a lot of problems, but has created some too. The problems that it creates are not actually it's fault, it is the people who use cell phones who are to blame. Manners and courtesy are many a times thrown out of the window without even realizing. And its not that am just repeating what I have read here and there... its what you get to experience daily that causes you this much discomfort. Why don't people realize that their conversations over the phone might bother those around them, and have the courtesy to go outside the room and attend that all important call during which any and everything ranging from stock prices to phone recharge to your food habits are discussed? It just gets disgusting after a point of time to bear with all this crap.

Eating styles: Now don't get me wrong here. I don't give a shit whether you are a veggie or a non veggie, spend most of your day eating junk and have the unhealthiest possible eating habits. Its the manner in which you eat, that is a problem. Chips manufacturers advertise their products to be crunchy, but that doesn't give you a right to eat it while producing a loud crunch crunch sound.. hell even the bovines are better than this; even they don't produce this much sound!

thats it for the time being... let something happen that pisses me of more, and i'll give my 2 cents to it...

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Day 9: 25th August 2008

Just another day.. routine... boring... no studies... feeling totally wasted right now.. and on top of it all, feels like my persistent annoyer, the dreaded zukaam is going to catch up with me .. :(

Don't even feel lik writing anythin..

n-9 days to go...

Monday, August 25, 2008

Day 8: 24th August 2008

Hmm... my regular post is delayed a bit today as was busy with some work in the field of high finance :P . Anyways who cares? As if you have been checking my blog since midnight, waiting for this post to arrive!

God, its already been eight days! It can be a small time or a long duration depending upon how you look at it. Over the lasty couple of days have managed to convince myself of my course of action.

Day 8 was a bit different. An AIMCAT, followed by solid four hours of sleep, and finally a quiz. Must say it was refreshing to attend one after such a long time. It was a bit hectic what with all the finance work thrown in. And things not looking any better for today. Have got two submissions and a test and yah CAT preparation is always there, if I choose to acknowledge its existence!

That reminds me, even started filling the CAT form yesterday. Have to wind that up too. And oh how can i forget the inconsequential phone conversation!!

Anyways have to go now. Assignments are waiting, a test is looming...

n-8 days to go...

Sunday, August 24, 2008

A Conversation of Inconsequence

Imagine an inconsequential conversation, with people whom you can't refuse to talk coz of social obligations, a conversation which for you holds no meaning, is irrelevant in the scheme of things. A conversation during which you would be asked a lot of questions that you would be forced to answer; a conversation during which people would try to gauge your physical and emotional well being through these questions. The questions seem to go on and on, even when your answers get shorter and shorter till they are reduced to being mere monosyllables.

They don't realize that there isn't a lot that I can tell them, can I? How would they understand, for they have never experienced what I am experiencing? It just blows my lid when I have to carry on these conversations, forced to carry on because the norm of the society would deem it inappropriate if I don't. Not that I give a damm about that, but then some things are just meant to be.

Day 7: 23rd August 2008

Ahh.. midnight... its fast becoming my favourite time of the day as i look forward to add something to my chronicles...

yesterday was day 7... and well a tough one... i nearly broke the promise i had made to myself.. but somehow.. it didn't happen.. whether it was for the good or the bad.. only time will tell...

have to go now.. promised someone I am going to comment once the meaning of her most recent post sinks in...

till tomorrow..

n-7 days to go..

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Day 6: 22nd August 2008

Ahh.. now here's what I like most about college life... its keeps moving... the 24 hour time limit of a day doesn't seem to bother the continuous flow of time.. yesterday was one such day.. (i know i know its paradoxical :) ).

Around my usual sleeping time (read 5 am) was pondering over my life.. my future.. my last AIMCAT %ile was bad.. so needed something to cheer me up.. decided to give a mock.. hadn't been able to tak AIMCAT 0912 for some reasons... and had heard that it was quite easy.. so well at 5:30 i started my test and finished at 8..

by now it was way past my sleeping time.. so i thought what the heck.. lets get some work done.. and will sleep after Devy's lecture.. submitted an application for my CPI certification thingie.. went to the bank with DM saab to get our internet banking pwd.. (ahh.. that reminds me.. forgot to book my tickets.. shit!)

anyways.. post all this went to attend Devy's lecture at the end of which I managed to get myself a book to be read till monday.. baah.. And then i slept.. :D

This is an addition to the post.. I realized even though I slept in the afternoon, the fresher's I attended still technically happened yesterday.. so well.. had to mention it..

I have actually started to look forward to these daily chronicles.. somehow they provide a semblance of control where there is none..

Anyways I have to be honest here... this might as well be the last.. nobody knows for sure..

I was born on a Saturday
Today too is a Saturday
And it will change my life either way..
n-6 days to go..

Friday, August 22, 2008

Day 5: 21st August 2008

Things have started falling into a pattern. Someone needs to realize I am in no shape of providing emotional support at the moment.

n-5 days to go..

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Day 4: 20th August 2008

I so love normal days!! But as it happens to be.. they are a rarity in my life! The only good thing about today was that managed to put in a couple of hours of study. Not enough i know.. but at least its a beginning...

The dreams continue to torment.. but.. I will survive!!

n-4 days to go...

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Day3: 19th August 2008

Ahh.. a strange day.. in many ways.. had a couple of interesting phone conversations... one with an old friend.. who in a way is responsible for my recent activity :) ... and another during which well lets just say, got to hear some real nice stuff :D

But then it was tough.. seeing someone online jus does something.. and then there are the dreams that just refuse to go away...

Another weird thing.. like a good boy went to the RC to study.. only to find it closed :S... reason: it was a holiday.. baah

n-3 days to go..

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Something worth remembering

From the backstabbing co-worker to the meddling sister-in-law, you are in charge of how you react to the people and events in your life. You can either give negativity power over your life or you can choose happiness instead. Take control and choose to focus on what is important in your life. Those who cannot live fully often become destroyers of life.

Anais Nin

Day 2: 18th August 2008

The 2nd day is over. Pretty much like the first one. Blogged after a long time. For those interested in symbolism, the link is broken. Started with analysis of the papers..

n-2 days to go...

Monday, August 18, 2008

Answering that Tag...

Once upon a time there lived a guy called Lanky ( i guess he's still alive! ;) ). When the world was young and the Sun shone bright he tagged Piper who dutifully accepted it. Piper in turn tagged me, but then I wasn't seen in blogosphere for a looonnnnnnnnngggg time. Now that I am back, and have nothing else to do, I will accept that tag and give my 2 cents to whatever crap is being talked about.. :)

Last movie seen in theatre: Dark Knight... simply awesome... Nolan rules!!

Book being read: Not in our genes by R.C. Lewontin, Steven Rose, Leon J. Kamin; Yuganta by Irawati Karve.

Favourite Board Game: snakes and ladders, known as sanp seedhi in local dialect. Ludo is a close second followed by chess, a distant third.

Favourite magazine: Reader's Digest.

Favourite smells: the aroma originating from mom's kitchen and that of fresh rain.

Favourite sounds: Ummm.. Ummm... Can't think of any!!

What is the first thing you think when you wake up: What is it time to get up already?

Worst feeling in the world: Not being able to cry when you really want to...

Favourite fast food place: a lounge called mr. beans in Jaipur. Among the internationally renowned ones, McD...

Future child's name: know what Piper? you aren't the only silly one around! And no am not answering this..

Finish this statement, “If I had a lot of money I’d.. spend it!!

Do you drive fast? yeah..

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal nope... never have in fact.

Storms- cool or scary? cool...

Do you eat the stems on broccoli? huh? what was that..?

If you could dye your hair any colour, what would be your choice? hmm i guess auburn..

All towns/cities you have lived in jaipur and gandhinagar. Want to experience Pune and Blore at least!!

Favourite Sport to watch: Cricket!!! And not only T20.. ODIs... test matches.. anything would do... God bless Star ppl for coming up with Star Cricket!!

One nice thing about the person who sent this to you I don lie on my blog :P

What’s under your bed? broken slippers, discarded shoes, some wrappers and lot of dirt.

Would you like to be born as yourself again? yeah..

Morning person or night owl? is morning the time when the sky starts brightening just before I go to sleep?

Over easy or sunny side up? yeah angrezon vaale sawaal puchna band karo...

Favourite place to relax: my living room..

Favourite pie: Again my predicament is like Piper's.. aware only of chocolate pie.. so by default that's the facourite..

Favourite Ice Cream: Butterscotch and choco-chips... love them!

Ahh.. the bad thing about accepting a tag so late in the day is that almost everyone you know has already been tagged... Hmmm.. Wait I guess Chadda is left!!! So here it goes.. I pass on the tag to Chadda!! :satan:

Day 1 : 17th August 2008



Yesterday was the first day. Wasn't as tough as i had thought it would be. Wrote an AIMCAT, pathetic performance, read, slept, ate a bit... n-1 more days to go.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

All You Need is Perspective

Over the last few days, had a couple of conversations with people who were similar to one another, yet so different. Its keeping those conversations in backgorund that I put forth my take on the things that one takes for grnated in life, or in other words one's outlook towards life.

Ohk so before me move further, lets get some things clarified. The focus group, for the want of a better term, of this post is that of Indian students in their late teens and early twenties. The views that follow are mine, though as metnioned above, are influenced by my recent experiences. And finally, if you think you disagree, you are most welcome to share your thoughts.

Life is a journey, and during this journey we travel along a road that's unique for each one of us. The places that this road take us to are to an extent in our hands, for it can not be denied that we make our own destiny. However more often than not, the people who shape their own destiny are far outnumbered by those who are just happy to trudge along the road. They wander aimlessly on this road of life. During this journey called life, we experience a lot of things, some good some not so good. All is hunky dory as long as the experiences are good, but the real test comes when things aren't to our liking, when the going is tough. Its then that the true nature of individuals and indeed a society is revealed.

Lets consider a scenario. Most of us fail in one thing or the other. And its through these failures that we learn and indeed succeed in due course of time. Had everything been like this, life would have been so simple. Alas, it isn't so simple. No matter how successful we are, no matter what our accompalishments be, we'll find excuses to crib about things. 'Man I am such a loser, I didn't make it to the IIMs' , 'I have not been granted schloarship from MIT, i have failed my parents' are some of the common utterances of today's youth. Be it academic failure or heartbreak in a relationship, we tend to think of ourselves as the worst off person in the world. So much so that we aren't ready to listen when somebody tries to show us that all's not lost and life still has meaning. Its then that we really need to reflect and decide, are we really in such a pathetic condition? I think not.

In pursuit of materialistic goals we have neglected things that really matter in life, things that we take for granted. The next time you start to say that life couldn't be worse, pause for a moment and think, is my life in such shambles, that no matter what happens, my condition can't get any worse? If your answer is yes, then you need a reality check.

When was the last you acknowledged your family's support and indeed felt secure knowing that no matter what happens, my parents would always be there for me? Now think of all those millions who do not have families or whose parents don't love them. When you pray next, say thanks to God for your family.

Money is another factor that makes us crib a lot. It deosn't matter if we are wearing branded clothes, sporting a new cell phone and driving a fast bike. If there is something that we want but don't have money for, we'll crib. The next time you complain about something similar think of all those who don't have enough money to feed their families.

I don't want to sound all philosophical and say that since we are better than a lot of people we shouldn't be ambitious. No that's not the point. Being ambitious is a good thing but its also necessary to realize that these things are not the end of the world. Failure in an examination doesn't make you a total loser. As long as you are learning from you past mistakes, its enough.

Sometimes all what's needed is to put things in perspective.

Friday, August 15, 2008

End of an Era


Come Monday and the world of tennis fans would be engulfed in two contrasting emotions. For a large number it would be day of heartbreak, but for an equally large group, it would be a day of rejoice. Monday, 18th August 2008, marks the end of an era in the world of tennis, an era that we have been fortunate to witness. After nearly four and a half years of domination, for the most part of which he was unchallenged, Roger Federer would hand over he number one spot to his nemesis, Rafael Nadal.

This Monday we would witness something that had seemed impossible at the end of the previous year. Federer had ended 2007 by winning the Masters in addtion to his usual troika of Grand Slams; being defied only in Paris by the sultan of clay, Rafael Nadal. Rafael Nadal, it seemed was destined to be the number two forever. In fact he faced the danger of losing that spot to Djokovich.


However as 2008 dawned a different Rafa emerged from what we had known. He had added to his armoury a deadly backhand slice, he was even more focussed and more adapted to play at grass. At wimbledon he ended Federer's reign at grass and symbolically that in itself was the signal for the change of guard. ATP rankings and points were mere formalities, an official confirmation of what we all had known; Rafa had truly arrived! Even the most ardent Federer supporters would acknowledge, that if there was a person who deserved to dislodge Federer, it was Nadal.

Nobody is quite sure what led to Federer's decline. Some attribute it to a viral infection, some to slowing of reflexes and some simply to lack of motivation. Whatever may be the reason, it would be premature to write off the genius that Federer is. He will bounce back though it seems highly unlikely, if not impossible , that he would be able to dominate like he did in the last four and a half years.