Void

Hmmm i don't know how to put it... but ever since NATCONG 07, something has changed... I am not able to pinpoint it but something is definitely not the same... I don't feel that comfortable sitting and doing nothing... the college activities seem even more mundane than they used to be... i want to be constantly subjected to challenging environment, an environment which tests me and my capabilities... there's a void... a void which I somehow do not know how to fill...i guess that's it... I am not sure as to what i want to say more...
adios!

NATCONG 07 Kodaikanal

Ohk... so the days of brainstorming, the nights of partying have finally come to an end. Well trust me it was one helluva of an experience. Imagine... your sirst national conference and on the first day you get to elect the new MCP!!!
The experience was totally different from what i had expected; the MC were also humans, easily approachable, friendly; high fliers from Jaipur were as easy to talk with and the enthusiasm of the new kids of kochi n indore was mind blowing!
Now its all over; the sexy kodai weather, the tasty kodi chocolates, that lovely rxperience of boating on the lake in semi darkness, the uncomparable experience of driving down the hill, with the clouds beneath us, its all over, but not for ever.
Such experiences will come, if not kodaikanal it would be some other place... but it will surely come back! and how can i forget the impact that it has on my personal life! not only it increased my social circle tremendously i made some really close friends in this week. the care that we showed for each other when one of us was sick, really makes my eyes go wet now...
i can go on and on like this... but i guess its time to stop and savour those sweet and bitter memories...

Delhi Trip!!!

hmm well da trip's been over 4 quite a while now but surely it has left a mark on ma life...not only in the things it taught me; but also wid respect to the frnds i made over there!!! long live r frndship!!!

Thoughts

Thoughts...everyone has thoughts and I am no exception. Thoughts keep comin and going, its like an infinite loop; thoughts enter your mind, you muse over them for a while and then they exit, but not without creating some mischief. These swirling thoughts would sometimes leave you full of pleasure, and you'll feel as if you own the world. But more often than not they will leave you in a strange state. Now strange state is itself a a strange term to describe that state and this is the state I am in right now. Would I call it anxiety, perhaps no; worried no again; confused, another no! Its just that kind of a feeling when you don't really understand what's happening to you and if you do know that you have no idea as to why its happening to you!
Lost in this labyrinth of thoughts, one has to search for that guiding beacon which would help us emerge from this swirling mist. And that's exactly what I'm doing now. My present condition is one in which I for the first time am finding it tough to make a decision. For i know that whatever decision I make now will decide the course of my life for the few years at least. It may even define the course of my life but am not sure whether that's the case or not; and one should never make the folly of trying to look into the depths of future.
At this point, I'm truly alone. I have no one to and seek guidance from. My parents have since the beginning left all decisions to me. It was my decision to not to drop an year, it was my decision to choose this college and it has been my decisions that has brought me to this point. So why trouble them unnecessarily and besides I'm sure they won't be able to grasp the true sense of the situation, not that I doubt their ability; its just not their cup of tea. Now you would say what are friends for? Indeed thats what they are for! But whom would I ask; the guy whose opinion I respect the most is himself facing a dillemna, and I have neither the inclination nor the patience to explain my condition to those "wise people".
Under normal circumstances I would have taken up a good book and read myself to sleep and during the sleep a solution would magically appear. (not kiddin! it really works for me!)However as luck would have it I'm out of decent books right now so I did the next best thing: I just poured my heart out.Let's see if it works...

Those were the Best Days of ma Life...

Almost everyone of has heard these words. And what do they remind us of? Bryan Adams, summer of 69! Well before the last weekend same was the case for me; but then something happened and it changed it all!

Around two weeks earlier I had entered into an organization, an organization named AIESEC and the this past weekend I attended my first ever AIESEC conference- the L-Cong! And trust me people words are not enough to describe those two days. It was something that you have to experience, to believe it.

During the conference I really got the opportunity to know what AIESEC really is, and it’s a lot more than any run of the mill youth organizations. The days were full of interesting sessions taken by professionals from TCS n Azure. The team game one by the TCS person was really great and I guess made us a more resourceful person in the process. Any ways for those who think that it was only work all the way are in for a pleasant surprise!

At AIESEC we believe in the dictum: Work like an animal and party like a beast! After the first day plenary ended at 9 pm, we all broke for dinner, and guess what? We were back by 10:30 and this time for the masti! The dance, the jives, the sculling competition…. It really was an awesome experience. One would say it would have been like any other party… but the answer’s a big NO. It was different, not only in the way it was conducted, but also in the spirit with which we absorbed, what quite a few of us would have termed as a cultural shock.

And how can I forget this! The dimension that made it certain without doubt that we will not forget this evening! For as the clock struck the midnight hour, the day changed form Saturday to Sunday, it was Venky’s (our LCP) bday! And how can a bday party be complete without some serious ass kickingJ. Well we were all part of a conspiracy to give Venky a nice time (pun intended). And am almost certain that Venky would agree to it! Any ways Venky was his usual self, and even performed babuji solo for us!

Anyways if we had thought that the L-Cong was over, we were grossly mistaken! For the second day was even better than the first day. What with us being allotted with our departments, the farewell to Noam and the surprise package: the AIESEC Baroda EB!

All in all it was an experience worth having! I am still sulking over the fact that I wouldn’t be able to go to the NLDS because of my insems…Oh ya one more thing! I forgot to mention my deptt. TN

TN too sexy for SN

Too sexy for YDEP

Too sexy for the non-exchangers…

TN.. TN… TN TN TN

7th September 2006