Saturday, November 22, 2008

Lost...


Something's wrong with me

I don't know what, but something is

Definitely wrong with me


I no longer care for anything

Nothing bothers me anymore

It's not as if I stopped caring,

For I never cared anyway


I sometimes wonder what have I become

It wasn't supposed to be like this

And now I sit and think

Of what I want to be

And the answer scares me


This change, whatever it is

Is freaking me out

I no longer find any comfort,

Nor solace in my solitude


Am floating away

But not going anywhere

Unknown to all,

Am floating away


All I wanted was to live

Not anymore, Now

I wish to escape

I wish to die

9 comments:

Prabhu Dutta Das said...

Striving to escape from reason is not a lost cause. Like the heck DAMN it all, and sleep on it, burn it, throw away the ember at lotus pond. All should be fine!

you just wont know said...

enjoy d lonliness while it lasts.ur gifted wid a soul that feels d fact tht its numb for now.
it happens.and we move on.and we feel again.we do.jus a gap.when we feel again ,then we realize how much we learnt from our numbness.cherish it. relish it.prepare urself to feel again..u'll only be a better and a stronger person.

Random Guy said...

@ youjus..

temme sumthng.. u got all that from the poem.. or u hapopen to be wired into my thoughts somwehow.. :)

Mads said...

lovely poem....we all hv felt like this at some point of time...this blank kinda feeling....it wont last long...it happens...

at least that's what i interpreted from ur poem :( maybe im wrong...

Random Guy said...

@ Mads

you did a good enuf job.. Cheers.. :D

Anonymous said...

wow!! i wonder how many people feel so. i wonder how many people escape it? i wonder how many people stand it? i wonder how many hav the courage to smile and accept it? i wonder what you will do.
Your mind is wavering.
When you conquer it compose another poem, i wud like to read that more than this one. I am sure I will read it soon. :)

Random Guy said...

@ anon

yeah its wavering.. and i hope am able to conquer it soon.. will i write another poem? well can't answer that for am no poet.. these days the words jus seem to come out themselves :P

p.s. u the same person whom i conversed with on Musings? if yes, pick a pseudonym... :)

Anonymous said...

yeah! the same anonymous wanderer.
I dont visit many blogs; suddenly stumbled upon urs but commntd only bcos a bit of my past unfurls thru few of ur posts.
That's it.
I dont think I will b commenting so frequently that I pick up a pseudonym. I dont like to judge things around, particularly not wen people write for themselves.
Thus, let "anonymous" itself be my identity on ur blog.
The rest doesnt matter.

Read "If" by Rudyard Kipling. Even if u hav read it, read it again, each line, carefully. You might then understand what I meant to see in the poem you might compose if you succeed. Whether or not u produce such a poetry, produce such an unconquered soul.
Your happiness I am sure will hav no bounds. Goodluck, wanderer :-)

Random Guy said...

@ Anon

Hmmm.. i had thought as much.. that's why ur comments had the sort of insight.. it was pretty weird in the beginning.. a complete starnger reading your state of mind... now i like it.. :)

have read IF, what it portrays is beautiful.. maybe one day i will be able to embrace it...

and thanks for your wishes.. keep checkin in from time to time.. :)